Archive for October 2012

Back Home in Herrnhut!

God taught me quite a few things while being on outreach. The first lesson was that ministry is hard in first world countries. People are so content in living the lives that they already have. They have so much that they can fill their lives with, they feel like they don't need God. People think that in order to become a Christian they have to give up everything fun and what fills their lives, so they reject it. "Why would I give this up? If God wanted me to be happy, then why would he take away what makes me happy?"

I also learned that my expectations and God’s plans are two completely different things sometimes... well, most of the times. I would have thought that I would have already learned this lesson, seeing as though God and I haven’t seen “eye to eye” on a few occasions and he has always been right somehow (Insert sarcasm here ;) ) . I went into the outreach with expectations on how God would use me and how it was going to look. God had quite different plans for me, and my time there. I was disappointed at the time, but looking back now, I realize that I totally needed the learning experiences I had. If my weeks had looked any different then I wouldn’t have learned anything.

I had expected to be a part of “big” things. That I would see miraculous things all the time and that people would be giving their lives to Jesus left, right, and center. Amazing things happened (there was a healing and people discovering Jesus), but I expected so much more and was disappointed at my lack of “evangelism talent”. I didn’t even think that I was being used. I didn’t see results, therefor I was useless. WRONG! I wasn’t harvesting, but planting and watering. Sometimes we get so focused on the harvest we forget that we have to plant and water first. God is the most important in this process though. When I got back to Herrnhut he reminded me of this verse…

So neither he who plants nor he who waters is anything, but only God, who makes things grow.   1 Corinthians 3:7

Even if I had witnessed people deciding to let Jesus into their lives, it wouldn’t have been my doing, but Gods. I was doing something important while I was there. God had me doing what I was doing for a purpose. Even if I never see any harvest from the work that I did (and I probably never will), it was worthwhile!

During the second week we also put together a flash mob! It was so amazing to be a part of something so cool! I have another thing I can officially cross off my bucket list! It was so awesome that people were so fascinated by what we were doing and the fact that we were spreading the gospel by doing it. We all sang to “Beautiful Things” by Gungor and it fit with the city so well.

Being on the road is awesome, but nothing compares to being back "home". I have realized that I have a very loose definition of the term "home". I've been known to call camp, Trinity Western and the base here my home. Home is wherever I feel comfortable and content. I've never really been one for homesickness, because I usually feel quite at home almost anywhere, which I count as an insane blessing. But after being in the big city without an actual bed for two weeks, nothing beats coming "home" to the tiny town of Herrnhut and being able to crawl back into bed and back into my comfortable routine.

The big city was awesome, don't get me wrong. I love the city! Nothing beats Starbucks for €1.50 and only having to walk two minutes to get it! But there is something completely peaceful about living in a small town. I missed the trees and the quite of Herrnhut. ALSO God totally blessed us with snow this weekend, so that was TOTALLY AWESOME! He also blessed me with Bacon… which was amazing! It has been two months since I’ve had bacon. You truly appreciate so much once it is taken from you haha!

ALSO Breaking News! I found out my outreach location! WOOOOHOOOO!! I will NOT be posting in on Facebook or here, due to the safety of my teammates and the permanent base staff in the country(s). BUT if you would like to know, send me a message and I will fill you in on the awesome news!! I would also like to ask that you would please pray for me and my team, as well as all the other teams we are sending out. Outreach is going to be amazing and hard and life changing so prayer for ready and willing hearts would be much appreciated!

Here's the Video of us doing the Flash Mob.
If you are searching for me, my hair is strait, so good luck to you;
I like to make like Waldo and be hard to find ;) haha


Three Months

Three months ago my life was changed forever. I can’t even begin to describe the emotional roller-coaster that the staff, families and I went through. But God is good. That is what I cling to when times are rough; the fact that God is Good. He is beyond comprehension. I don’t know why we all had to go through this tragedy, but through Jesus comes healing, strength and wisdom.

The first week I came to YWAM, I was still devastated. I am really good at putting on a strong positive face and acting like everything is ok. My summer ended completely different than I wanted or expected and I had to leave my friends and brother, who were all still processing behind. I was in an entirely new country and had a lot of pent up emotional hurt that I was still clinging to.

The first lecture we were going through was on how to listen to God’s voice. I felt like He had something that He really wanted to tell me, but I was making things complicated and was overthinking everything. It has always been hard for me to hear God’s voice, and I was trying too hard and not really getting anything. I was frustrated and angry and all of my pent up emotional baggage came out. On the Thursday, Donna (our speaker) told us to take an hour and go for a walk. We were supposed to listen to what God wanted to tell us.

I went through the woods next to the castle. On the path, within the first 15 feet of the entrance, was a tree that been chopped down and an open stump. Broken branches surrounded the stump, and it was like I was back at camp. I felt like I needed to sit on the stump, so I climbed over to it and sat down and listened. An overwhelming sense of security washed over me. Seeing the size of that tree, and remembering how much devastation was caused by so many trees, God gently reminded me that he WAS there. The event could have been so much worse than it was. He is there in every circumstance. He has a plan for everything.

I was calmed, but not satisfied. I felt broken. I was still angry. I asked him why I felt so broken and why this happened. I looked down at the broken stump and saw little glimpses of new life growing from the brokenness. God then told me that He creates new life out of brokenness. From tragedy springs new life. I just sat there in his presence for a while and soaked it all in.

God’s ways are mysterious and confusing. What happened was awful, but so many life-giving things have come out of it. I feel like I’ve been so open with God since I’ve been here. So many things are changing and it’s because I was in a state of brokenness. God is the greatest comforter that there is. I’m still not happy with what happened, and I don’t think I need to be. I think all that I need to be is content in God and allow Him to work in my life. God works in every situation, all the time. God is Good, all the time.

Culture is “Shocking” Sometimes


            Living in a different country is… different. You think that would be obvious, but you don’t realize how different cultures are until you are there living smack dab in the middle of it. German culture is pretty different than Canadian culture. For example, I’m used to being as loud as I want during the night. However, here in Germany they have something called “Quite Hours”. Staring at 8 pm things outside have to be almost silent and at 10 pm things inside buildings should be quite as well. I am NOT used to this whatsoever. Things I used to do back home, like playing grounders until 3am, would NOT fly here.  This is disappointing because I love being outside at night having fun, but it is good in because it helps to make sure that I actually get to bed at a decent hour at night. 
We also take care of the trash quite differently. In Germany they sort ALL of their garbage. They have about 4 different categories of garbage, which are enforced everywhere, even in places like malls and outdoors. If we sort our garbage wrong at the base they can actually refuse to take our garbage that week. If we get repeated warnings they can even tell us that they aren’t taking our garbage at all anymore and we have to take care of it ourselves. They take it very seriously over here. I actually like it though. I wish we could adopt something like this back home… that is, until I have to throw out my to-go drink cup that I had my tea in, and need to use 3 different garbage cans for it! Haha.
Interacting with people in everyday life is different too. For example when I go to the store they usually don’t hand me my change directly. There is usually a shallow bowl that they put the money into. Line-ups are a free for all too. Just yesterday I had people, even old ladies, try to budge in front of me.
There is one interesting thing that I found out about. During lecture one of the staff brought up that when we worship on the street we have to be careful about how we raise our arms. They said that we have to be aware of how we angle our arms so that it doesn’t look like how the Nazi’s did back in WWII. I thought it was just out of respect, but after talking to a German, I found out that it was actually illegal to hold your arm like that in public. I found it interesting how much times have changed, but things from WWII still effect how people live their day-to-day lives.

Week 1 of Mini Outreach


My DTS left Herrnhut last Sunday for Nürnburg do to mini outreach. This being my first time doing any mission type stuff ever, I probably don’t need to explain how excited I was, especially if you know how excited I get over just about anything. We had our entire school (all 120ish of us) waiting at one bus stop, which must have been a sight for anyone passing by. We had called ahead to the bus company and warned them that we would be traveling in such a large group. They said that it was no problem and that they would send two buses. Guess who didn’t send two buses!! First miracle of the week… fitting 120 students, complete with traveling backpacks, camera equipment, musical instruments, art supplies and whatever else you can imagine, onto ONE bus. I was buried under about 4 or 5 backpacks! It was actually so much fun (although I’m sure that the bus driver would argue otherwise…).
From the bus we got onto a train, and then transferred to get to Nürnburg. I have never gotten motion sickness before and now I can officially say that it is NO FUN! Oh man… It was the craziest train ride I have ever been on. It didn’t help that I was riding the entire way backwards… that’s probably what did it to be honest. I have a new found sympathy for people who get motion sick.
Because we are such a large group of people, once we got to Nürnburg it was time to split off into groups to stay in our specific locations. My group is staying at the YMCA right smack-dab in the middle of the city, which is awesome! We’re really close to everything and get to explore the city at night too (also it’s perfect for late night McDonalds runs). We are a 3 minute walk from the old cathedrals and the closest location to the huge castle at the highest point of the city.
As a school we were still in lectures this past week. We would listen to lecture and from there we would go do street evangelism. So far, it’s looked different every day. Sometime we lead worship on the streets, other time we approach people and talk to them. At times its more subtle, like leaving notes in books and change rooms of stores for people to find.
God has been working so much since we’ve been here. There are countless stories of how he’s shown his faithfulness and timing here. I actually got quite discouraged my first few days here. It seemed like every time that I tried to evangelize it would just turn into a big flop. Nothing would happen and I would feel like a failure. I was trying so hard I think that I forgot that it wasn’t me that needed to do the planning, but God. He has the correct timing for everything.
A group of 3 of us were sitting in McDonalds and one of us needed to go to the bathroom. We looked at the bathroom and there was someone collecting money. Depending on the store in Germany, you have to pay to use the bathroom. I knew that Starbucks was a place where you didn’t need to pay to use them, so we headed off there. She went to the bathroom while Ally and I stayed outside and tried to take advantage of the free wifi. I was having some issues connecting to it because my iPod touch is positively ancient so we were “complaining” pretty loudly in a joking manner. A German boy around our age asked if we needed help. We said no, and that we were just being winey about the wifi and he laughed. We noticed that he had a guitar case, and being from an arts school we asked him about it. We got to talking and he invited us to sit down. We told him what we were doing in Nurnberg and he asked if we were going to talk to him about that “Jesus stuff”. Ally said that we could if he wanted to, but he insisted that he didn’t want to. Instead we talked about his band and how they play on the streets and in bars. He talked about how they were in the process of mixing and releasing their first CD. We were planning to do worship in front of the old cathedral that night, and since he was into street music we invited him and then we parted ways for the day. We didn’t think much of it until later that night. He actually showed up and got prayer and talked to us for a long time about Christian morals and our beliefs. He played us some of his songs and we invited him to the gallery night we were going to have so he could play some music.  He ended showing up and we got to talk to him some more. Hopefully we’ll get to keep pouring into his life for the next week we’ll be here! It was just so cool seeing how God works!  I asked a German afterwards and she told me that the lady at McDonalds was actually asking for donations and not payment, but had we known that we would have never gone to Starbucks and would have never met him.
There have also been countless other things that have gone on here like healings and other “coincidences” like the one that I had (I don’t believe in coincidences anymore). God is just so perfect and amazing.
Today is our lazy day; we get to explore and relax and then it’s back to the streets for another week of awesome! If you wanted to pray me and my DTS, prayer for a continuing of God’s amazing works through us and for our energy to stay up would be amazing. God is so good and I’m excited for all the stories that I’ll get to share about how much he works in all of our lives and missions here.

Touring the Country

The Awesome Flea Market!!! So HUGE
Bring in Germany, I have the opportunity to take advantage of the amazing transit system. It's super easy to just get on a bus, catch a train and go wherever you want to! As soon as the weekend starts to approach at the castle, you can hear all the students starting to plan out where they want to go touring. The most popular stop for us is Dresden. I've been to Dresden three times already and each time I've had a blast. From hitting awesome flea markets, to finding bits of home like Starbucks, H&M and McDonalds, to being amazed at the amazing old German architecture, this city has pretty much everything!
Please don't get mad at me Banjo Man! hehe
The first time I went I hit up the flea market. It was SO HUGE it made my head spin! This flea market had everything from old German war metals, to awesome craft supplies, to ancient cameras (which it took a lot of restraint on my part not to buy...). I had so much fun looking around at everything and taking pictures. I saw an awesome banjo that I wanted to take a picture of, and I learned the hard way that German gypsies do not take too kindly to photographs of their merchandise being taken... Haha I was so thankful that he spoke English and I could talk my way out of that one! The second time that I went to the flea market I didn't have any money (which for me, was probably a good thing!) and Maddie and I were looking at this awesome old fold camera. We asked the man in VERY broken German how much the camera was and he said 30 Euros. That was way out of our budget so we put the camera down gently and started to walk away. As we were leaving though he stopped us and thrust two older German film cameras into our hands. We tried to refuse, but he insisted and we now have matching cameras! It was so cool. They may not be the greatest cameras, but hey, they were free!
The city itself is gorgeous. There are lots of fountains and statues to look at and the old architecture makes me drool. I have exclaimed multiple times, “Why are there no buildings like this in Canada!” Haha. When I go back to Canada, I may go into pretty building withdrawal.
I love old buildings so much!!!

Yesterday we went with a few fine art students to do local outreach. Local outreach is when you go to a town close to the base and do something to bring joy to people and show them how great God is. They had to do an art instillation somewhere for their local outreach and Maddie and I tagged along. We got together before and prayed that God would show them where and what to do, and after Starbucks and a trip to the AMAZING craft store we set off. What happened was awesome! Ashley started drawing dots and then circles radiating from the dots in chalk in the center of the shopping square. They represented Christian spiritual growth. We all joined in, because who doesn’t love to draw with chalk, especially in random places where you might not be allowed to draw! People were stopping to watch and some kids came by. We offered them some chalk and then it took off! Teens and kids and parents were helping us and they started to ask questions. It was awesome! Before we left they wrote down some Bible verses in German and English and people were still looking while we packed up and walked away. It was so amazing! God is so good!

Such a fun day!!
This little boy was my favorite!